We're baaaaaaaaaack! YAAAY!
Wow! It's gonna take some time to get "back into the swing of things",
especially blogging. I'm not sure I'm as interested as I was before.
So, we'll see how long this blogging thing lasts, from this point
forward.
I took some needed time off from everything (friends, family,
blogging, etc.). It was an interesting experiment. I sent out
a blind carbon copy email to several of my friends/family members
that read:
"Taking time off from everybody, and everything for a while.
Been there emotionally for everybody else for so long now; forgot
about myself and what I need. Have hit an emotional brick wall,
and need to re-group. Talk to you when I do. Hugs, love ya'..."
In addition to using the time to take a good hard look at myself, and
how I interact with friends/family, I wanted to see who would care/
dare enough to call or 'be there for me', in spite of what was written
in the email.
Why? Because, I was beginning to notice the wonderful people
I had drawn into my life, never seemed to talk about anyone but
themselves, and when I mentioned things/problems that I was
dealing with, they never seemed to be able to listen, or rather,
"be with me" very long before they returned to talking about
"their" problems or topics of interest.
Now, this had never been a problem for me in the past, as I am
an avid 'listener'. But, recently, I realized I want friends who
are sincerely and genuinely interested in me enough to really
listen 'heart-to-heart', are concerned enough to call me when
they sense something is not quite right with me, and who have
the courage and maturity to know everything is not always about
them.
Anywho... During, the time I've been away. There has only been
ONE friend, that cared enough to call to see if things were okay.
That person I treasure more than he knows. He was brave enough
to care and act on that caring beyond appearances of possible
rejection. And, no, he is not a romantic partner, or potential
partner. Just a real, honest to goodness, friend.
Yeah, right! He never really paid much attention to her
wacky email in the first place. Mah kinda guy!!
Does that mean that I'm gonna shut my other friends out of my life?
*H* NO! I love them dearly! [Edit: However, I've decided to limit
the amount of emotional time and energy I've give to their needs]..
Am I gonna let them know how I feel? Naaaaah! I'm not gonna go out
on some big campaign to 'remedy' the situation. There's no need.
It's not their fault. My friends 'are' who they are. They're not
the ones who need to change. I am! I have.
And, it's all good!

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